I grew up in a
middle class family, where my mom was stay at home with three kids, typical
three kids of a middle class family two
girls and voila then a boy and I seriously don't blame my mother for that but I did myself for that. Niki not a very beautiful girl of the family
may be or may be not. Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder.
Niki dreams as big
as sky- she wanted to be a very good classical dancer, she wanted to
make her mark in sports. None of which my parents thought was as important then
getting good ranks on report card. I am not
blaming my parents for that , this is what it is during our time from part of
our society. Till date not on those ideal days, my parents think I am very spoilt.
I sometime wonder,
with all what I experienced (not all mentioned!!) how could I
have done it and be where I am today.
I had a very strong support system it was my
friends. We shared our dreams together,
we shared our aspirations, we shared our
weaknesses, we shared our lack of funds or envying those so called well off students of the class
whose driver used to pick up from school,
we shared and shared.
I was bullied, I was
not one of the cool girls in the class there was nothing about me that was cool at that time but then
I had someone who stood by me always, that someone cried for me to be
her best friend (vice-versa) or that
someone wanted me to be around her. I
sometimes ignored her and sometimes loved her so much by making up for it but she never left me and stood by me vice-versa. I have good
memories and memories there are no such
thing as bad memories. Good memories
makes me smile and cherish. Other makes me think how to grow out of
odds.
Now I am in that
phase of life surrounded with people , mother of a
3.5 year old surrounded with
social dinners ,play dates, birthday parties, career oriented, busy is a way of living. I am in a era where
people have more friends on social
networking site then they even can remember the names. We like to text more
then even picking up the phone to talk. We just don't meet up we plan and make
an appointment for dinner.
Rather laughing our
heart out we will post LOL, we talk,
talk and talk about movies , serials season but we don't share. It has become
our second nature to not have anyone "tangibly" involved in our lives but to judge others if
we know their shades. I am not sure
where we are heading to with this.
Ironically, we find
friends and company for our kids so that
they have companion to grow up with and they learn from each other, we try to
find and have kids of same frequency , we go to an extent when we even plan babies
around it and of course naturally when
our children grow into big boys and big
girl they are not born with insecurities
from their friends, for them growing
is having fun with their
friends and learning from each other .
I am not sure if would stay same when those same big girls and big boys becomes as grown ups.
So next time when you decide to judge
someone or feel insecure to keep things to yourself remember you will be passing this baton to your shadow some way. Happiness increases
by sharing and sharing your doubts or
grieves definitely gets a vent. Don't be scared to who judge, as they don't know what it is like realizing their own dreams. Have light
of sharing to make your dreams into reality.
I know I wouldn't
have been here where I am now if I didn't have that support system of
sharing and made a friend for life time
and I till date believe in that and
thank her for that.
I have still miles
to go to make a mark for myself or may be for someone out there and give the
baton of sharing to the next volume of this book …
To Be Continued …
