There will be always something "old" in the New Year

“When you do what you fear most, then you can do anything.”

somethings and some people make a lasting impression, so does some lines. Somewhere I read "Years are short and days are so long"  

2013  

Lived each day in this year as if it was my last and made most of it.  I have been crazy juggling with many things this year, I have laughed to bits and pieces and cried to pieces as if it was my last day on earth still managed to hide it from the world.

If I tell myself to count the blessing of 2013, every day was a blessing and if I  put all of those in one it was called family. Without it's support  Work, Zumba, Bollywood Beatzz, Teaching kids, Dancing at Oregon convention center and teaching at local gym would not have been possible. I  "ALSO" did something which i feared the most  this year and it feel immense victory to do so... 

For me :

This year 2013 was about priorities and loved ones, year of learning. Life should be like a poem that it can be sung and remembered from time to time. It shouldn't be about you it should be about giving, understanding and believing in others but first foremost you have to believe in yourself  and enjoy yourself.  You should be able enjoy the art of making memories for others and you.

We watched a movie called Great Gatsby he used to throw large parties and everyone always surrounded him but when he died there was no one who came to his grave.  I have this fear too when I would need someone I wouldn't have anyone and I even shared with one and only.  somewhere i know I never ask for it as I have this fear of getting put down. 

on a lighter note.

Again one quote from the same great gatsby “Can’t repeat the past?…Why of course you can!” 

No matter how old you are now. You are never 2 young or 2 old for being a kid again or for  success or going after what you want.

I have this weird sense of insecurity when people doubt me and my work owing to lot of other things I do in my other lives out of work.Then I remind myself what I heard from someone worth an inspiration "If you have fire inside you, you will make it happen and you will succeed"  and I am living on these line every day.  “There comes a time when the world gets quiet and the only thing left is your own heart".

Last but not the least learnt how to smile on losses in the last month of this year :) 

You should feel bad on loss but any loss that is replaceable and repairable you should be grateful that it is  a loss that can be repaired...

 Health , people, memories and smiles are the biggest treasures.

Happie 'Me List'

It is past 1:00 am and all the thoughts are rushing

Things haven't gone as planned as they should  and I am not the same person as I was  as I woke up in the morning I had couple of panic attacks, didn’t finish all my list of To DO items and  didn’t come upto my expectation or still didn’t reach my target weight or dimension  or didn’t get any kudos of hardwork, I have been putting at work but I am happie, you don't need to be successful, perfect  to be happie.

What does it take to be happie, anyone in this world the one who has no roof over his head  and is going through toughest times  still be happie but the one who  is driving a porche might not be , the list can be endless  and I will keep adding to My Happie List.

Happie List

1. Don't hold a grudge against anyone, remember holding a grudge wouldn't impact the  most other than you learn to let go
2. Always remember there is always so much you can do but do it with your honest heart and do it for you, someone very dear said me you are very selfish , if thinking about yourself "NOT" at the cost of others is selfish be it atleast one person sure is happy also if you are taking an extra mile for someone again  you are doing it for yourself.
3. Learn to remind yourself  what has happened has happened you can't change that , what you can change is what is going to come, so try to work on that rather keep thinking of what happened. It also comes with big warning that you can change only those things in future which are in your control

4. Try to have  good support system every person has unique place & importance in your life, you are not bound to stay with one and only one ,  every person is there for a reason in your life, value and respect each and every relationship or friendship and family and don't take them for granted do small things to make big memories.

5. Always pursue your  passions no matter I didn’t have my parents , family support pursuing my passions that doesn't mean I don't love them I love them to death but I pursued  my passion even if it needed sneaking out of my comfort zone or telling all possible lies :) but indeed it made me happie in the end.
6. Try to stay away from drama from people who judge and try to keep it simple , I usually get very nervous when I am judged  so still working on it…
7. BTW, one doesn't know what will make one happie unless you try it I very proudly say I am very ignorant, ignorance is bliss at times :) so be it …
8. Sometimes big memories  are messy ones learn to laugh at those and always think as long it is replaceable  and you can afford to get it fixed be grateful of it and laugh at it , thing happen and will happen just don't invite trouble make sure you don't repeat same mistake again :)
9. Being an extrovert doesn't mean you don't spend time with yourself, learn to enjoy your company, I love to drive to parties alone and at times have my lunch alone spending some time with myself is  my happie time :)
10. Make the best out of what you have rather not yearn for what you don't have believe it or not real happiness comes from things which has life "fresh air, floral, fauna and creations and man is best well creation you can encounter EVER!!! 

Make the best out of those  you have , scream and shout and let it out and be HAPPIEEEEEEEEE !!!!